Been along time...

It has been a long time. I haven't stopped the journey just got derailed a bit. With the loss of my daddy and everything else it has been hard.

I have been taking care of my family and not myself for quite a while now. I have help that isn't the issue...I was just hiding from myself. We joined a gym as a family and I have gotten the kids moving and grooving. As soon as I am done with these IV infusions (for an infected toe) I am going to go back to swimming. I figure the kids go 4 times a week (2 lessons each a week) for swimming lessons and it would be a great time for me to hop into the pool next to them and do my own work outs.

I am back on eating every 2 hours, the effects of not doing so have shown greatly. I need to start back on IP full time, that will come very soon.

Until later...

Sigh...

I thought 36 test results (yes 36 tubes of blood) would yield something, well they did but nothing thyroid related. I am severely low on vit d (taking Rx supplements now) and my iron is extremely low (still?!), plant based iron is not enough for me.

I really thought they would have the magical pill answer. I am going to let them know tomorrow aobut my mom and her results, and compare to mine. I am also going to ask for a trial (1 month) on a thyroid drug to see if I can come out of this painful existence!

Got my 2 week (well 2.5) supply last Friday, had strawberry pudding in it...haven't had it yet trying to (gag) finish off the vanilla and lemon I bought. Ok lemon is a tad better but vanilla ughhh nasty. Some like it but I don't!

Until later...

Late start to the month w/cheats

I started late in the month, and with cheats happening. So tomorrow I will start as though day 1 all over no cheats, hate the first week (I recall it!) of hunger but I have extra packets to get me through. I also ordered the strawberry pudding...the rest was what I like. I hate that we can't order samplers! I wish I could find an exchange group locally, but then you worry about like when you were a kid with the halloween candy...people worried that it would have been injected with something?! Anyways...

I went to the dr. today (endocrinologist) one that listens, to have myself tested for a slew of thyroid, hormonal in balances, vitamin deficencies etc. So that news will come in soon and I hate to say it but I really want it to come back OH this was the problem, take this and you shall be fine (my mom's magic pill!). I know it won't solve all the worlds problems but maybe mine!

I won't post results until next Friday (I liked Fridays as my day to weigh etc.), mostly will be weight, I don't think I will do inches yet have to teach other half how to do the measurements.

Until later...

Ah good news!

I am going to start back up again! Starting April (will get a for sure date next week) I will be back on the meal plan! I am so excited. I can't wait to start. It has been really hard these past few months, with the financial hardship and the sudden loss of my daddy. I feel lost, but maybe I will find myself soon!

I will be posting weekly results, and here and there through the week if I have something to say. No one cares what I ate...I will have a journal of it but beyond on that...not worth it.

Thanks for listening...until later...

Explaination

The last time I wrote this was the day before I was laid off...just after that my daddy died suddenly. Since his death on January 11, 2010 I have not been on the meal plan as I like to call it these days. I have tried to remain eating healthy (when I eat), but it is hard to eat. Once I get back into the workforce I will start back up but until then I can't justify it despite the fact that I was doing great on the meal plan.

Life is for the living, and the thinner me wants out so she can live life! I hope to find a way to get back on the plan so I can lose this extra weight. Until then...